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Sunday, February 24, 2013
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
The Scenario Pt. 1
I've often thought of how I'd kill you.
Sometimes Master is there, holding you down. Sometimes I get to do it all by my self.
But my favourite has to be when we're alone.
I break into your room; I have, of course, spent months planning for this, and no longer care about any of the consequences of my actions, just happy in the thought that you would be dead by the end of the night.
I didn't bring a chainsaw. Of course I didn't. Far too noisy, and I don't want any of your family waking up and interrupting us, now do I?
No. I brought a gun instead, with a silencer of course. I don't care if people hear the final shot; I'll be long gone by that time.
Once I've pryed out your bedroom window (terribly silly of you to leave it unlocked, by the way) I climb in, and land as silently as I can in your room.
I scoff at my surroundings. The presents I gave you clearly on show, whereas I had burned everything you had given me.
I contemplate wrecking your room, quietly of course, once I had you restrained and gagged.
I turn to your bed, see you sleeping. God, what a sloth.
Wondering how to wake you without too much of a comotion, I turn to your curtains and shut them slowly, before baracading your door with your shelves. You stir slightly at this, but return to your land of dreams.
I crouch down and look through your phone, full of soppy messages to your 'lover'. I spit in disgust on it, before hurling it out of the window. Good thing I was wearing gloves.
I wake you in a simple way, gag you, which causes your to wake in a panic, pull you out of bed by your hair, and, whilst you struggle on the floor, tie your hands and feet securly behind your back.
Your eyes are wild with fear as you desperatly try to assess the situation. Then your eyes find me, and they become wide with panic. It's laughable.
I smile, even laugh a little to see you in such a pathetic state.
I remain silent for a while, listening to any indication that your family have heard anything.
All quiet.
I smile again.
Not so confident and strong now, are we?
I start to walk around your room. I pick up one of the gifts I gave you. It's very beautiful, well painted. I even thought of buying one for myself. I feel harsh, to the present, as I tear off its limbs and throw them to the floor, before looking back at you. I know now that any means of wrecking your room will cause too much noise, and will make your family wake up.
Then, I begin to think of ways I could torture you, prolong your suffering, out loud of course.
Your eyes are still wide, even- is that? Yes, you begin to cry a little as I describe the various ways I'm going to hurt you. Oh please, someone play the violins.
'Should I ungag you, so you can beg for your life?', she doesn't respond. I laugh again, and kneel down close to her face, 'If I ungag you, you have to promise that you won't scream, or else.. I know a certain part of your body which, if hit, will cause you immense pain', I of course don't. I'm not the most inteligent person. And I know that she is smarter than me. She's not convinced, and even gets a littler calmer, which I do not like.
Giving the appearence of bordem, I pull out my kitchen knife and begin to jump it up and down on her legs, and down to her feet. 'Reply' I say plainly, as I drive the knife slowly into her foot. I quickly hold my hand over her mouth, as well as the gag, as the muffled scream fills the room. It's a bit louder than I expected, so I quickly remove the knife, and drag a pillow from her bed and cover her mouth with it. She's no longer screaming - wimpering, crying. Most likely praying in her head that this will all end.
Like fuck and I going to let this end any time soon.
I look into her eyes, and ask again, 'Do you want to beg for your life?' she makes a weak little sound this time, as she nods slowly, sort of like a baby horse nickering, except way more pathetic.
I smile, and then I know that she won't scream, or we will start this all over again, I promise her.
Keeping the gag handy, I pull it away from her mouth. She coughs, and makes a frightened kitten noise at the sight of her still bleeding foot. I follow her eyes down to it, and smile a little, 'Yeah, it took me a while to get it in; I forgot the foot had bones in it'. She meets my eyes. She still hasn't said anything.
'I'm not doing all of the talking, but I guess I'll start'. I stand, and begin to walk casually around the room. 'You think what I'm doing is unfair, don't you?'. Still she doesn't talk. I get a little angry as I speak. 'I don't suppose you've ever cried yourself to sleep, have you? I don't suppose that you've ever wanted to cut yourself, something that you swore that you'd never do again, and have urges to do so, several times, I might add, all because of one girl who you thought would never hurt you?!'. I stop and glare at her from across the room.
'I never thought that I'd be here, and have you there as my first victim'. We stay silent for a few moments, she taking in what I'd said, her eyes, somehow, becoming calm.
'"Oh never mind about Connie! She'll just calm down eventually! All her threats about killing, they'll never happen! She doesn't want to cut herself! She doesn't want to die!" I bet those were your exact words, weren't they?!'.
I quieten down again, knowing that shouting any louder will definatly wake her family.
'Go on then. Give me your opinion'.
I stare at her. I don't think she knows what to say, so I start for her, 'Let's begin with a plea for your life, shall we-' 'Stop it. Please.'. She interuppted. At first, I was shocked by her words, but then I do my best to regain my confidence, though her tone did strike a nerve somewhere.
'Not good enough. Try again' I say, this time, I come to knee in front of her, a hold the gun to her left temple. Somehow, she still has her confidence. 'Connie, please don't do this. You'll ruin your life if you kill me', 'Me? Ruin MY life?! *scoff* You ruined my life long ago, and this what you get for it! Beg again!'.
But, for some reason, she's now quiet, and reluctant to beg anymore. She looks at me like she knows that I won't kill her. I laugh. I can't help it. I laugh louder than I should - maybe her family will just think it's her.
Sometimes Master is there, holding you down. Sometimes I get to do it all by my self.
But my favourite has to be when we're alone.
I break into your room; I have, of course, spent months planning for this, and no longer care about any of the consequences of my actions, just happy in the thought that you would be dead by the end of the night.
I didn't bring a chainsaw. Of course I didn't. Far too noisy, and I don't want any of your family waking up and interrupting us, now do I?
No. I brought a gun instead, with a silencer of course. I don't care if people hear the final shot; I'll be long gone by that time.
Once I've pryed out your bedroom window (terribly silly of you to leave it unlocked, by the way) I climb in, and land as silently as I can in your room.
I scoff at my surroundings. The presents I gave you clearly on show, whereas I had burned everything you had given me.
I contemplate wrecking your room, quietly of course, once I had you restrained and gagged.
I turn to your bed, see you sleeping. God, what a sloth.
Wondering how to wake you without too much of a comotion, I turn to your curtains and shut them slowly, before baracading your door with your shelves. You stir slightly at this, but return to your land of dreams.
I crouch down and look through your phone, full of soppy messages to your 'lover'. I spit in disgust on it, before hurling it out of the window. Good thing I was wearing gloves.
I wake you in a simple way, gag you, which causes your to wake in a panic, pull you out of bed by your hair, and, whilst you struggle on the floor, tie your hands and feet securly behind your back.
Your eyes are wild with fear as you desperatly try to assess the situation. Then your eyes find me, and they become wide with panic. It's laughable.
I smile, even laugh a little to see you in such a pathetic state.
I remain silent for a while, listening to any indication that your family have heard anything.
All quiet.
I smile again.
Not so confident and strong now, are we?
I start to walk around your room. I pick up one of the gifts I gave you. It's very beautiful, well painted. I even thought of buying one for myself. I feel harsh, to the present, as I tear off its limbs and throw them to the floor, before looking back at you. I know now that any means of wrecking your room will cause too much noise, and will make your family wake up.
Then, I begin to think of ways I could torture you, prolong your suffering, out loud of course.
Your eyes are still wide, even- is that? Yes, you begin to cry a little as I describe the various ways I'm going to hurt you. Oh please, someone play the violins.
'Should I ungag you, so you can beg for your life?', she doesn't respond. I laugh again, and kneel down close to her face, 'If I ungag you, you have to promise that you won't scream, or else.. I know a certain part of your body which, if hit, will cause you immense pain', I of course don't. I'm not the most inteligent person. And I know that she is smarter than me. She's not convinced, and even gets a littler calmer, which I do not like.
Giving the appearence of bordem, I pull out my kitchen knife and begin to jump it up and down on her legs, and down to her feet. 'Reply' I say plainly, as I drive the knife slowly into her foot. I quickly hold my hand over her mouth, as well as the gag, as the muffled scream fills the room. It's a bit louder than I expected, so I quickly remove the knife, and drag a pillow from her bed and cover her mouth with it. She's no longer screaming - wimpering, crying. Most likely praying in her head that this will all end.
Like fuck and I going to let this end any time soon.
I look into her eyes, and ask again, 'Do you want to beg for your life?' she makes a weak little sound this time, as she nods slowly, sort of like a baby horse nickering, except way more pathetic.
I smile, and then I know that she won't scream, or we will start this all over again, I promise her.
Keeping the gag handy, I pull it away from her mouth. She coughs, and makes a frightened kitten noise at the sight of her still bleeding foot. I follow her eyes down to it, and smile a little, 'Yeah, it took me a while to get it in; I forgot the foot had bones in it'. She meets my eyes. She still hasn't said anything.
'I'm not doing all of the talking, but I guess I'll start'. I stand, and begin to walk casually around the room. 'You think what I'm doing is unfair, don't you?'. Still she doesn't talk. I get a little angry as I speak. 'I don't suppose you've ever cried yourself to sleep, have you? I don't suppose that you've ever wanted to cut yourself, something that you swore that you'd never do again, and have urges to do so, several times, I might add, all because of one girl who you thought would never hurt you?!'. I stop and glare at her from across the room.
'I never thought that I'd be here, and have you there as my first victim'. We stay silent for a few moments, she taking in what I'd said, her eyes, somehow, becoming calm.
'"Oh never mind about Connie! She'll just calm down eventually! All her threats about killing, they'll never happen! She doesn't want to cut herself! She doesn't want to die!" I bet those were your exact words, weren't they?!'.
I quieten down again, knowing that shouting any louder will definatly wake her family.
'Go on then. Give me your opinion'.
I stare at her. I don't think she knows what to say, so I start for her, 'Let's begin with a plea for your life, shall we-' 'Stop it. Please.'. She interuppted. At first, I was shocked by her words, but then I do my best to regain my confidence, though her tone did strike a nerve somewhere.
'Not good enough. Try again' I say, this time, I come to knee in front of her, a hold the gun to her left temple. Somehow, she still has her confidence. 'Connie, please don't do this. You'll ruin your life if you kill me', 'Me? Ruin MY life?! *scoff* You ruined my life long ago, and this what you get for it! Beg again!'.
But, for some reason, she's now quiet, and reluctant to beg anymore. She looks at me like she knows that I won't kill her. I laugh. I can't help it. I laugh louder than I should - maybe her family will just think it's her.
Jewellery of the day
Since I missed it yesterday... here it is!
This heart ring was for my 16th birthday from Jessica
Monday, February 18, 2013
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Jewellery of the day
My ring which has a real dead crab inside it. It was really expensive. $20. I bought it in Australia.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Updated Wednesday intro
I would like to thank all those people who helped me grow and move on even if they left me in their lives. Because they have helped me become strong willed in certain aspects and I definitely acquired a new trait; empathy. Real, strong empathy. I have always been analytical but not particularly understanding towards the raw intensity of emotions.
Throughout the year of my downward spiral, I have discovered plenty of fascinating people. Maid-sama for one is definitely one of my favourites. Midna. Fabienne. Ricky. Kate. Emily. The list goes on and on. I have explored, directly and indirectly, mental illnesses, eating disorders, self harm and suicidal tendencies. It sounds dark but I believe it has done the reverse; shown me the light. It showed me that people do care no matter how much you don't care about yourself. There will always be at least 1 person who does care.
Love language - Japanese
So do you want to know some phrases in Japanese that are about love and romance? Well, look no further! Even though French is regarded as the language of love, I still prefer Japanese. It just sounds so cute and romantic when said in Japanese.
すごく好き
Sugoku suki
I'm crazy about you
愛してる
Aishiteru
I love you
あたしはあなたの彼女
Atashi wa anata no kanojo
I'm yours (female)
ぼくはきみの彼氏
Boku wa kimi no kareshi
I'm yours (male)
Anata wa atashi no kareshi
You're mine (female)
きみはぼくの彼女
Kimi wa boku no kanojo
You're mine (male)
すてきよ
Sutekiyo
You're attractive
キスしてもいい?
Kisushite mo i?
May I kiss you?
Japanese basics
Some notes of mine that I have scanned for your learning fetish ;D
Double consonants and the pronouncation of n:
Long vowels and short vowels:
Grammar and writing system:
Numbers:
Pink dress photo dump
Me in a pink dress that I bought from Australia. It was fairly cheap; around $10. I was going out to dinner with my family.
Monday, February 11, 2013
A Guide to Moving On~
It's nearly a whole two months into the new year, and everyone is making a new start.
Seen as though it's coming up to Valentine's day, and we have already established that this blog and it's occupants are 100% anti-Valentines, I'm going to give you a small, but good guide to moving on from any past relationships, whether they be friends or a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Step 1: Let go
Not in an angry way, remove everything in your room/house that reminds you or was given to you by this person. Give any gifts away to charity, or to someone who could use them or needs them. This is so much better and calmer than, say, burning them or throwing them away. Remember, you are trying to be positive, and the bigger person. I'm not saying that doing this is going to be easy, but you have got to try. And believe me, letting go of these things will make the process so much easier.
Step 2: Be the bigger person
You're not doing this in a way that is rubbing it in the other person's face, but in a way that makes you yourself feel happier inside, knowing that you have managed to let go, no matter what the other's feelings are. Maybe write down your thoughts; here it's okay to be angry, maybe even a little teary, because once you have written down these thoughts, end the letter with 'p.s. I forgive you' or a little calm message saying how you are feeling now, and then burn the letter. This symbolises that you are letting go of all those angry, hurtful feelings, and finally letting yourself move on.
Step 3: Start being yourself again
Now that you have moved on from feeling all those emotions, you are finally able to be yourself again. Why not take this time to do something creative, like paint, draw, write? Or maybe you could change your look, like paint your walls a different colour, or start wearing your hair in a different style. You don't need to change, it's just this would be the best time to try something new, now that you're letting yourself go. Maybe you could do something that you used to love doing as a little kid? Like, collecting autumn leaves, or scrap booking. Whatever you chose to do, show those who care about you that you are okay now, and on your way to recovery.
Step 4: Be positive
Everything bad that happened in the past, it doesn't exist anymore. And even if it does in the minds of some, it no longer matters to you, or affects you. You are now free from any of those emotions that hold you back. Start being with your friends more, plan days out. Even if you have to see that other person every day, don't hang your head in shame; stand tall and be happy and confident. What happened between you no longer exists. You don't even have to talk to one another, just, try to be civil.
And most importantly, never forget to smile :)
Seen as though it's coming up to Valentine's day, and we have already established that this blog and it's occupants are 100% anti-Valentines, I'm going to give you a small, but good guide to moving on from any past relationships, whether they be friends or a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Step 1: Let go
Not in an angry way, remove everything in your room/house that reminds you or was given to you by this person. Give any gifts away to charity, or to someone who could use them or needs them. This is so much better and calmer than, say, burning them or throwing them away. Remember, you are trying to be positive, and the bigger person. I'm not saying that doing this is going to be easy, but you have got to try. And believe me, letting go of these things will make the process so much easier.
Step 2: Be the bigger person
You're not doing this in a way that is rubbing it in the other person's face, but in a way that makes you yourself feel happier inside, knowing that you have managed to let go, no matter what the other's feelings are. Maybe write down your thoughts; here it's okay to be angry, maybe even a little teary, because once you have written down these thoughts, end the letter with 'p.s. I forgive you' or a little calm message saying how you are feeling now, and then burn the letter. This symbolises that you are letting go of all those angry, hurtful feelings, and finally letting yourself move on.
Step 3: Start being yourself again
Now that you have moved on from feeling all those emotions, you are finally able to be yourself again. Why not take this time to do something creative, like paint, draw, write? Or maybe you could change your look, like paint your walls a different colour, or start wearing your hair in a different style. You don't need to change, it's just this would be the best time to try something new, now that you're letting yourself go. Maybe you could do something that you used to love doing as a little kid? Like, collecting autumn leaves, or scrap booking. Whatever you chose to do, show those who care about you that you are okay now, and on your way to recovery.
Step 4: Be positive
Everything bad that happened in the past, it doesn't exist anymore. And even if it does in the minds of some, it no longer matters to you, or affects you. You are now free from any of those emotions that hold you back. Start being with your friends more, plan days out. Even if you have to see that other person every day, don't hang your head in shame; stand tall and be happy and confident. What happened between you no longer exists. You don't even have to talk to one another, just, try to be civil.
And most importantly, never forget to smile :)
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Buying your Figma
Okay, now I'm going to help you.
First, let's keep using that Dead Master figma you found as an example, alright?
Here she is, don't worry. You'll hopefully have her by the end of this!
Right, you've tried Amazon and Ebay, and, naturally, you're weary of buying passably fake Figmas, which could leave you out of quite a bit of saved-up money, and feeling upset.
Don't panic; you DO NOT need to buy from the Japanese websites. In my experience, I have very easy to use websites that all stock figmas, ALL IN ENGLISH! :D
Dude, English sites are a good thing! Don't be worried about buying from them just because they are not Japanese sites; these sites are all very trust-worthy.
First website; JBOX, or Jlist, if you want to be on the more 'adult' version of the site. (Jlist is the same as JBOX, save for the fact that they show you Adult items for sale).
Here it is --> http://www.jbox.com/home
To find your figmas, simply go to the 'Anime & Toys' section of the site.
Hey! Sure enough, JBOX currently stock the Dead Master figma you've been wanting! RESULT! In fact, she's on pre-order, meaning that she hasn't been released yet, and you can pay in advance for her!
Next, is HobbyLink Japan. http://www.hlj.com/top/Fig?page=2 This one is a litte harder to navigate, but lets again use your Dead Master figma as an example. Type 'Dead Master' into the search box right at the top of the home page, and you should get this page here -
Oh, and there is Dead Master again! Second from the top is your desired figma!
Clicking on her, you may feel a little worried to see that she is being sold for Yen, the Japanese currency. But don't worry. Once you've clicked on her, you'll be on this page, correct? Well, move your curser over the price, and you'll see the exchange rate in Pounds, Euros, and US dollars. See? She's not that expensive here, is she?
I'll advise you on another post about which my most prefered out of all of these is for prices and such.
Next, is Tokyo Toys, which is easier for UK residents like myself, but doesn't stock as many figmas you would like, in fact, they do not even stock the Dead Master figma at the current time, but they do offer a range of other figmas, and anime and game-related items! http://tokyotoys.com/ It's very easy to navigate, so you should have no trouble with it. Simply search 'figma' into their search bar at the side, and you will see all the figmas they currently have on sale.
If you have any questions - need help with any sites, buying or finding a particular figma that you have been looking for, please leave a comment in the box below and I will get back to you as soon as I can! ^w^
Sayonara-
Maid-sama
First, let's keep using that Dead Master figma you found as an example, alright?
Here she is, don't worry. You'll hopefully have her by the end of this!
Right, you've tried Amazon and Ebay, and, naturally, you're weary of buying passably fake Figmas, which could leave you out of quite a bit of saved-up money, and feeling upset.
Don't panic; you DO NOT need to buy from the Japanese websites. In my experience, I have very easy to use websites that all stock figmas, ALL IN ENGLISH! :D
Dude, English sites are a good thing! Don't be worried about buying from them just because they are not Japanese sites; these sites are all very trust-worthy.
Here it is --> http://www.jbox.com/home
To find your figmas, simply go to the 'Anime & Toys' section of the site.
Hey! Sure enough, JBOX currently stock the Dead Master figma you've been wanting! RESULT! In fact, she's on pre-order, meaning that she hasn't been released yet, and you can pay in advance for her!
Oh, and there is Dead Master again! Second from the top is your desired figma!
I'll advise you on another post about which my most prefered out of all of these is for prices and such.
Next, is Tokyo Toys, which is easier for UK residents like myself, but doesn't stock as many figmas you would like, in fact, they do not even stock the Dead Master figma at the current time, but they do offer a range of other figmas, and anime and game-related items! http://tokyotoys.com/ It's very easy to navigate, so you should have no trouble with it. Simply search 'figma' into their search bar at the side, and you will see all the figmas they currently have on sale.
If you have any questions - need help with any sites, buying or finding a particular figma that you have been looking for, please leave a comment in the box below and I will get back to you as soon as I can! ^w^
Sayonara-
Maid-sama
An introduction to Figma-collecting
So you've just finished watching your latest anime. You're so in love with it! The story, the characters.. you'll be thinking about it all for months to come!
You Google the name of your favourite character - maybe Dead Master from BRS - and you find something that gets your intrigued. Looking closer, you realise it's a posiable figure!
Dude, that's awesome!
So, you set off searching for more information about the figures, still keeping that image of Dead Master in your mind, and discover that they're called 'Figmas'.
Now you know what they are, that there are even more of them for you to collect, all from your favourite games and anime, even Vocaloid, you want to go about collecting them - starting off with that Dead Master figma that made you fall in love with the figures.
Obviously, you don't know where to go, so your first idea is Amazon or Ebay - you trust these sites as easy to use, and in English.
So, you head to it, and find things like this ^
There she is, the Dead Master figma you dreamt of! But wait, you need to slow down and have a look.
Remember, you found out that figmas can be quite expensive. You know that cheap-looking ones should be avoided, and inspect the pictures closely, as some pictures could be stolen from the actual Japanese websites where the figmas are normally sold.
Remembering this, you think that it's going to be difficult to trust Ebay or Amazon; they could all easily be fakes or Chinese reproductions.
So, with a heavy heart, you're now stuck.
Hello, my name is Maid-sama, and I'm going to guide you into the world of figmas.
You Google the name of your favourite character - maybe Dead Master from BRS - and you find something that gets your intrigued. Looking closer, you realise it's a posiable figure!
Dude, that's awesome!
So, you set off searching for more information about the figures, still keeping that image of Dead Master in your mind, and discover that they're called 'Figmas'.
Now you know what they are, that there are even more of them for you to collect, all from your favourite games and anime, even Vocaloid, you want to go about collecting them - starting off with that Dead Master figma that made you fall in love with the figures.
Obviously, you don't know where to go, so your first idea is Amazon or Ebay - you trust these sites as easy to use, and in English.
There she is, the Dead Master figma you dreamt of! But wait, you need to slow down and have a look.
Remember, you found out that figmas can be quite expensive. You know that cheap-looking ones should be avoided, and inspect the pictures closely, as some pictures could be stolen from the actual Japanese websites where the figmas are normally sold.
Remembering this, you think that it's going to be difficult to trust Ebay or Amazon; they could all easily be fakes or Chinese reproductions.
So, with a heavy heart, you're now stuck.
Hello, my name is Maid-sama, and I'm going to guide you into the world of figmas.
Saturday, February 2, 2013
New lolita clothing!
So I went back to this gothic and lolita store I frequently go to in Taiwan. It's called J-live and I know everyone who works there. I'm friends with them all and they give me discounts, invite me to events etc. Being with them is awesome. Only problem is that we don't speak the same language! Pity. Today I bought a black lolita blouse:
And a sweet lolita skirt.
The photo quality isn't that good, sorry xD I didn't bother to put on accessories and shoes. I just wanted to show you what I bought ^^
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